Never Goin Back (aka Paging Wes Anderson)

by Eli Cash

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This is a song that's personal, yet universal in its messaging.

"Never Goin Back" explores the varied emotions we can all have about what has happened in the past, and how to deal going forward.
It's easy to point the finger at others, or lash out when you feel you've been mistreated or talked about behind your back. But ultimately, we need to be able to reconcile our own actions as well; to admit we aren't perfect, and own it. For me, I could sit back and have a million regrets for what I could have or should have done differently in life - whether with my music or otherwise - but at the end of the day, the past is the past and we can only learn from it and move forward.

"Never Goin Back" walks the line between being introspective & sad at times, with a dose of humor & lightness to avoid taking myself too seriously. The song also serves as a mantra of sorts, to remind myself to be present, and block out the negativity both internal and external.

Hopefully, the song will mean something to other people as well, or at least give you a song to sing or hum along to for a few minutes.

lyrics

Never Goin Back (lyrics by Eli Cash)

Woke up in the morning feelin lowkey
I know not too many people know me
But I won’t sell my soul
I’d rather be on my own
Never tried to say I had a halo
I’ve been feelin like a volcano
So I think it’s time to go
I’m walkin right out that door
Never said I’m perfect
I keep on putting the work in
I’ve been called a jerk and
I probably even deserve it
So I keep on growin and tryin to change the verdict
Removing the burden and learnin what self-worth is
I could be a phony
Follow trends or just purchase
The followers and the streams to make it seem like I’m worshipped
But I’d rather earn it, or fail being imperfect
The past we can’t reverse it
But something I know for certain is

I can’t go back, no I can’t go back
I don’t know where I’m gonna be
But I’m never goin back
No, I’m never goin back
I don’t know what’s in front of me

Pulled up in a minivan tipsy
I know everything you got against me
But I’m just bein myself
Not tryin to be anyone else
Bet they wanna see me fail
I’m so white I might as well be mayo
What, ya think I don’t know?
I’m doin this on my own
I was never gonna be nothing but just another one
Just another number that never gets up to number one
Try to be a man but I know I’m really my mother’s son
Turn the other way and I’ll prolly just get a sucker punch
Now I’m only talking to myself, and it helps
But I know too many people who are bad for my health
I might wake up in the morning, hung over, lookin like hell
But I can’t put that on anybody else
Gotta keep on pushin and growin
The kush that I’m blowin
Has got me writin verses and flowin
And none of it’s stolen
Cuz everything I’ve done I’m ownin
Tryin not to have regrets in the moment
Nobody’s knowin where the future is goin
I know that

I can’t go back
No, I can’t go back
I don’t know where I’m gonna be
But I’m never goin back
No, I’m never goin back
I don’t know what’s in front of me

I see you projectin onto me now
Thinking you’ll feel better keeping me down
While you’re starin at your phone
Pretending you’re not alone
I’m just bein me like I’m supposed to
How many more times I gotta go through
How we are not the same and that you wan’t me change, no
I don’t care, no I really don’t care
But I heard what they said about me
And it’s not fair, yeah I know it wasn’t fair
But I can’t let it get to me

Cause I can’t go back
No, I can’t go back
I don’t know where I’m gonna be
But I’m never goin back
No, I’m never goin back
I don’t know what’s in front of me

credits

released June 18, 2021
Recorded, Mixed, Arranged & Mastered by Reynaldo Jenkins at Ruthless & Toothless in Racine, WI
Produced by Reynaldo Jenkins & Eli Cash

Violin by Zachary Scot Johnson
Guitars by Reynaldo Jenkins
Drums & Keys by Eli Cash